Reality Painkillers

Some people want to heal .. they want to be healed from within .. to them, true healing is a necessity to move on in life .. and to those who want to heal, they know very well that in order to heal, you must expose the wound, you must talk about it, acknowledge it, state it as it is .. it definitely will hurt, but that's what it takes to heal from it .. like pulling a needle out of your body, it will hurt, but that's what you need to do to heal it ..

Then there are those who are fine with distractions .. they are fine with living their whole lives avoiding the true cause of their pain .. "as long as there's a way to not feel the pain for today, we're taking that way" .. today and tomorrow and the day after that .. the needle stays since they can have painkillers all day every day ..

I belong to the first group .. and I live among a family of the second group ..

My soul dies a little more each day, if that's even possible ..

Nothing I hate more than "reality" being "shushed", and tons of other meaningless substitutes are being discussed, in a never ending vicious cycle where nothing really is ever solved ..